And she had a sister called Mary, who also sat at the Lord’s feet, and heard his word.
Luke 10:39 ASV
My mind just got stuck at the word ‘also’. When I read the word also while in the story of Martha and Mary, I just got aware of the fact how lonely I had been during this time of Covid and lockdowns and not being able to just enjoy faith together with friends and church family.
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I like life. It is fun. It is bright. It is sometimes very challenging and even confusing. It definitely brought me to places I have never expected to end up when I was younger.. But it did and it was and is good.. It also probably didn’t bring me some things I would expected to do or have achieved now in my early 30s.
Today it’s like 20 degrees celcius warmer then three days ago. We went from minus 10°C to plus 10°C. It’s one of the few big temperature rises I love, because now spring is coming.
Hey little boy in the blue pyjamas,
Did you know that I’ve been watching you?
I saw you playing a lot outside,
Mostly just on your own.
It was some decision making time… And it was a hard one for me… Because I need to put my own desires behind Gods will and purpose for my life.
Maybe Gods will is the same as my desires, but He showed me through a few scriptures that I need to follow Him first…
His ways are far above my ways and his plans are far beyond my plans, like Isaiah 55:8-9 says. He sees the whole picture, where I just see maybe one or two years ahead… If I can fully see them anyway.
So yesterday was a day spend with God… Time in the forest and alone with God. A time to get a peace in my mind even though I still want to go the other way around, but it’s alright if it’s not happening. Following God is what I want to do first! And I’ll just wait how He will lead me…
Today our sermon was about Jesus serving us. It was about psalm 23, which is very known of course. The Lord is my shepherd, He will lead me and guide me. And the pastor also spoke about John 13; where Jesus washes the feet of the disciples. Jesus wanted to learn us, by doing so, to lay of our dignity and learning to serve others no matter what.
Be enthroned upon the praises
Of a thousand generations
You are worthy. Lord of all
Unto You, the slain and risen King
We lift our voices with heaven singing
Worthy, Lord of all
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God, You have promised me that You will use me to set the world on fire!
You have showed me amazing plans for my life. Thank you for showing me, and thank you for reminding me…
It was, and every once in a while still is, a hard way to learn and to become more and more who I am meant to be, but still I see God’s hand through all the suffering and pain in my life.
And now I’m just looking forward to what will happen next.
Martha received and welcomed the Lord in her house, but still didn’t had time to listen to Him. I ask God a lot too.. I ask God to come over, I do invite Him in, but then I forget to just sit at His feet. I play music for Him; I listen to sermons about Him; I talk about Him. But I forget to take time to really listen to Him. I’m more like a party planner, always thinking about what is coming up next.
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Most days I’m completely fine with it, like a 97 percentage or something. And actually I planned to make no plans for today and to be on my own. But now it’s not fun. Today is second Christmas day in the Netherlands. A day with no particular meaning to it, except more friends family and Christmas dinners.
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Let Go and let God! 