And she had a sister called Mary, who also sat at the Lord’s feet, and heard his word.
Luke 10:39 ASV
My mind just got stuck at the word ‘also’. When I read the word also while in the story of Martha and Mary, I just got aware of the fact how lonely I had been during this time of Covid and lockdowns and not being able to just enjoy faith together with friends and church family.
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After all that washing during daylight,
I am happy to feel your softness at night.
I have applied you over and over again
And it wasn’t all in vain.
My hands feel soft and smooth
It feels like in my youth.
Thank you my dear hand cream
For bringing this soft beam..
Now stay with me this time.
I am happy you are mine… #handcream
Okay, today was not the best day.. even though it wasn’t the worst. Me having ADHD means I am sometimes a binge eater… It is not a really weird combination I guess, they actually did research about it, and it happens a lot. Actually they first diagnosed the binge eating and years later the ADHD, which made accepting me, who did not completely overcome the binge eating, a bit easier… But tonight…
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I like life. It is fun. It is bright. It is sometimes very challenging and even confusing. It definitely brought me to places I have never expected to end up when I was younger.. But it did and it was and is good.. It also probably didn’t bring me some things I would expected to do or have achieved now in my early 30s.
Today it’s like 20 degrees celcius warmer then three days ago. We went from minus 10°C to plus 10°C. It’s one of the few big temperature rises I love, because now spring is coming.
Last week I’ve met a new lady who got to live in the nursing home the week before. Lets name her Mary.
I had received an email from one of the nurses ‘We have a new lady living with us and at home she used tape to show her the way to the bathroom. The doctor asks if you can find a way we could use it here too at night.
Hey little boy in the blue pyjamas,
Did you know that I’ve been watching you?
I saw you playing a lot outside,
Mostly just on your own.
You know those colourful butterflies? They’re beautiful right? Especially when they are flying outdoors and go from flower to flower and leave to leave. Alright and lay a few eggs in your carefully sowed lettuce, so their kids can eat your lettuce… which you are almost able to forgive because of their bright and lovely colours.
It was some decision making time… And it was a hard one for me… Because I need to put my own desires behind Gods will and purpose for my life.
Maybe Gods will is the same as my desires, but He showed me through a few scriptures that I need to follow Him first…
His ways are far above my ways and his plans are far beyond my plans, like Isaiah 55:8-9 says. He sees the whole picture, where I just see maybe one or two years ahead… If I can fully see them anyway.
So yesterday was a day spend with God… Time in the forest and alone with God. A time to get a peace in my mind even though I still want to go the other way around, but it’s alright if it’s not happening. Following God is what I want to do first! And I’ll just wait how He will lead me…
Today our sermon was about Jesus serving us. It was about psalm 23, which is very known of course. The Lord is my shepherd, He will lead me and guide me. And the pastor also spoke about John 13; where Jesus washes the feet of the disciples. Jesus wanted to learn us, by doing so, to lay of our dignity and learning to serve others no matter what.
Let Go and let God! 