Confesssions of a binger

Okay, today was not the best day.. even though it wasn’t the worst. Me having ADHD means I am sometimes a binge eater… It is not a really weird combination I guess, they actually did research about it, and it happens a lot. Actually they first diagnosed the binge eating and years later the ADHD, which made accepting me, who did not completely overcome the binge eating, a bit easier… But tonight…

Winter survival!

Today it’s like 20 degrees celcius warmer then three days ago. We went from minus 10°C to plus 10°C. It’s one of the few big temperature rises I love, because now spring is coming.

Single days….

Most days I’m completely fine with it, like a 97 percentage or something. And actually I planned to make no plans for today and to be on my own. But now it’s not fun. Today is second Christmas day in the Netherlands. A day with no particular meaning to it, except more friends family and Christmas dinners.

Bored vs over demanded

One of the challenges of ADHD is finding a balance of enough rest to cope with all the different sensory input combined with an over active brain, but also having enough excitement in life to prevent myself from getting bored.

Living in purpose

I like my job, I really do. I still think that becoming an OT was a good thing for me. But a few weeks ago I had to draw the conclusion that even though I like helping people as an occupational therapist, I still have the feeling that I’m walking in my purpose for God when I’m travelling abroad 

Not if, but when? Maybe at 9?

I know some countries always have dinner late at night, so probably for you it doesn’t sound weird. In the Netherlands normal people have dinner around 5.30 or 6 o’clock. And back in the days people had dinner even earlier. But for me it was 9 o’clock today. And I was happy about it, even though it may sound weird, because most people believe it’s not healthy to eat that late at night (which is probably true).

I am sorry…

From the moment I left my friends house two hours ago, until this very moment I just kept on writing a blog in my mind. The blog has had ten subjects by now. But they all are about kind of the same thing again. Only it helped me to realise a few things. Last weekend I wrote about that I became addicted to silence. At the moment my mind is far from silent. Actually it is still one big chaos, but I kind of get ‘used’ to it again. All though the fact that I get used to it again, doesn’t mean that I can deal with it in a good way.

Addicted to silence

Actually, I’ve wanted to write this blog a million times already. And now I am writing it on a day that isn’t as glorious and awesome as the last few months. Today, I have no concentration at all, before I really started typing I already interrupted myself four times, because I had to make some Mocha Latte (amazing and healthy recipe!), flip over the LP and find some new batteries for my keyboard. This morning in church I couldn’t focus, while the sermon was very interesting (at least the bits and pieces I did hear), and yes I was talking way too fast last night so my parents couldn’t understand me at all…
And that all because these last few days I don’t notice the effects of my meds like I’ve gotten used to over these last few months.